I recently went through a breakup with someone I thought was the “one.” These past few weeks have been a roller-coaster of emotions. I can’t believe how quickly my thoughts and emotions turn and wind from one direction to the other. Anger, sadness, guilt, happiness, panic, insecurity, confusion, loneliness, resentment, peace, regret, fear, pain, and then a mixture of other random emotions all running through my heart. Emotions jump back and forth to each. Sometimes they run in a cycle and the cycle is continuous. It’s vicious.
I know I’ll be okay and that time will help me heal. I know I have the strength to endure and the only thing I can control is to reflect and learn from my mistakes. I have been seeking my spiritual side for some calmness. I have been praying. I have been meditating. I have been spending more time talking to people and discussing my feelings. But I’m still lost.
I recognize I have a huge void in my heart. No distraction can fill this void and I know it’s unhealthy for me to try to use something else as a replacement. I will persevere and I will try my best to stay positive, but the range of negative emotions that run rampant in my heart and soul are making it extremely difficult.
I know I have to let go. And so I hope this post will serve as a therapeutic avenue for my heart to begin to heal.